In recent days I became more and more overwhelmed with the growing task list that seemed to only be expanding and never getting smaller. It came to a few evenings sitting in my "thinking chair" balling my eyes out asking the questions of "Why God?!?!?! Why did you send me to do such an impossible task?!?!? I don't have a clue where to begin!!! I'm just not cut out for this!!!"--- have you ever felt this way about new territories?? Well then you know where I'm coming from! It seemed unfair and impossible.....
isn't it funny that in those two words we can define all that God is?
unfair?? yes... He is- but thank God it is for our benefit!! Fairness would lead to us having to pay the price for our sins. Fairness leaves no room for grace and mercy because we simply don't desire it- we are straight up sinners with no way out.....thats when our "unfair" God stepped in and sent his Son to pay the pricetag that was impossible for us to cover! So unfair? Really?? yeah-- He is! and I'm so grateful that He is!!
impossible?? yeah- I'd say that is a great description of what my God is- He holds the power of the whole world in His hands. He can turn water into wine, raise the dead to life, and cause deaf ears to hear sweet melodies... and thats just the beginning really. Impossible-- yeah, He totally is!!!
So while I was sitting in the midst of my pity parties God came in with crazy peace and reminded me of just who he is! I am still in the learning process of what all that means-- I think its part of that great mystery of chasing after the heart of God that makes it oh so sweet and exciting--- I wouldn't have it any other way!
Learning to trust his faithfulness---- Seeing Him as more than enough----- and this is just the beginning......
